Everything to a lonely man
And never will I bow to you”
- Delirious?
Martin Smith has a way with words. I think that is why, even
in my days as a Christian that despised most Christian music, I still listened
to Delirious?. The dude can write. The band had this amazing, evolving sound.
They took risks. And sure, in the eyes of most Delirious? wasn’t true rock and
roll (you know, no sex and drugs and all), but truth be told they were
pioneering, they were defying the system and they were leaving behind trails
that other bands would follow, albeit some, a decade later.
And that’s part of why music is just so important. First, it
is a reflection of a diverse landscape. Second, great music, whether it be
Aaron Copland, the Fugees or Charo, is pioneering. And both diversity and pioneering
were marks of Jesus and the early church and should be of the Church of today.
Let’s roll back to around Fall 1998. I was a sophomore in
college. I was studying religion at a Baptist school. Two things were simultaneously
evolving in me. First, was this displeasure with the state of what is known as
CCM (Contemporary Christian Music). The second was a lack of congruence with my
developing understanding of church and my Baptist heritage. I think in my
youthful zeal, I unfairly combined these things. As a matter of fact, I know
that I unfairly attributed a lot of things to UMHB that were just a matter of
growth. So Aunt Mary, consider this my apology.
Now, I have outgrown a lot of my calling people out, so I
won’t really name some of the bands that were targeted by my wrath, but there
were three common complaints that I had (and probably still would have) when I
listened to CCM. The first was cashing in on worship. Everyone was coming out
with a worship album. It was so frustrating. Sure, they were Christians, but as
soon as people saw Vineyard and Hillsong selling records, others decided to
capitalize on a trend. And the biggest problem I saw was, these were simply
covers of better renditions. There wasn’t even anything original being done.
As a quick aside, I have nothing wrong with covers. As a
matter of fact Antioch Community Church does a great job of covers. BUT, the
point of their CDs is to provide a central listening point for people within
the movement…not to make a quick buck. And that is why I can appreciate the
work of JMG others who are just trying to aid congregants.
The second complaint and the third complaint are two sides
of one coin. There were some artists who could write great poetry, but didn’t
give a crap about production and aesthetics of music. There was a huge
disconnect that prevented people from being able to access the music. There
were plenty of people who threw at me the mantra of the 1990s, “But just listen
to the words.” Sorry. That is no excuse. As Chris Hodges would say, there is no
excellence in doing that. Those artists only did half the work.
The last complaint was the converse. There were these
musicians who understand musicianship, created really pretty sounds and had the
depth of a snail (I originally wrote titmouse, because blogs need more titmice,
but in researching the intelligence of that species found they are indeed
intelligent…inasmuch as birds can be intelligent). So, you had this great sounding
stuff that considered whether or not unsaved people in hell could eat Lucky Charms. (Okay…moment of immaturity in calling out that song and band.)
That is why I stopped listening to CCM. I did however
continue to listen to worship music, and still do, but there was still this
desire for rock and roll. I think that is what happens when your dad raises you
listening to Janis Joplin. Something just sticks with you. Something desires
music that isn’t just safe, bubble gum, over produced, prettier than everything
else garbage.
Enter the picture one Jennifer Knapp. Knapp is currently a lightning
rod for those who know she is still around. She stands as this statue in the
crossroads of Church and homosexuality. To some she is this beacon of strength
and a public example of learning to stand on two feet as a gay Christian. To
some, she is nothing but a confused, deceived woman who thinks you can have
your cake and eat it too. But to me she is simply rock and roll.
Two things stick out to me about Knapp. First, is simply, I
have seen her in concert, I guess three times. The first two were back in those
Baptist days. The third was at Hotel Café in Los Angeles
where she was coming back “for one show.” That place was packed. An hour early,
and it was overflowing. It was an interesting show in several regards. First,
it was a bar, and for the most part, Angeleno Christians have no problem
throwing down some beer. But, the out of towners who came from Nashville,
Dallas and anywhere and everywhere seemed to feel a bit awkward. Second, Knapp
did new music…and it was REALLY raw. Like throw a steak on a grill for two
minutes raw.
Finally, Knapp didn’t close the concert. She snuck out a
side door. Yep. And at first I was disappointed. But then I realized, this
woman probably just isn’t ready for all that comes with “those questions.” And
I think that ended up being a fair assessment. And she dealt with those
questions (quite well I may add) with Larry King.
Second, and more importantly, Knapp wrote like no one else
at the time (except maybe Rich Mullins) in CCM. She was raw and emotive from
the very beginning. She was working out her faith with fear and trembling
before her sexual tendencies were ever known. But she was also doing it with
great musical relevancy and ability. When I listen to old Jennifer Knapp
albums, I hear someone who determined that the low road of putting out a product
for a buck wasn’t enough. Part of me thinks she would have been fine had she
never been the crowning glory of Christian music (which she was for a time).
She was doing her thing. She has continued to do her thing through it all. And
in that was she pioneered. And in what she is doing now, whether you agree with
her or not, she is a diverse voice that is trying to speak to the Church…and
others.
In other words, like Bob Dylan, Ella Fitzgerald or even
Mumford, she was making socially aware rock that spoke into the culture,
and in many cases the church. Like Delirious? she was rock for the Church…and
rock and roll? It’s everything.
I don't listen to Xian music anymore. But when I did, I was a big Jennifer Knapp fan (even before I had reason to applaud her for extra courage). In the last days when I cared about such things, I was always drawn to the CCM artists who spoke honestly about life.
ReplyDeleteThat's exactly it. There was something unauthentic about so much of what was being played at the time. And her voice was real. You didn't know what she struggled with, but you heard that there was struggle in her voice. Thanks for the comment btw!
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